I was struggling a lot this morning, thinking over questions about God, my heart, my sins, and almost everything. I couldn't make sense out of anything. And then my mom came. I was kind of depressed. I briefly mentioned to my mom that I might be able to use a desk in the niche that I have in my room. Forgetting about mom's character, I was mildly shocked when she wanted to go to Ikea in the afternoon. Oops. First went to Staples, looked around for desks, but instead found a chair that we really liked. Then off to Ikea, where after some looking around, decided on a desk that include shelves, costing around $200 including taxes. Surprisingly, it fits in my car, so that was good. We came back to Waterloo, and at a whim of thought went back to Staples again 5 minutes before it closes for the day (which we didn't know). Bought the chair, but they didn't have stock, so it's going to be shipped here on Monday. Cost of the chair: $340. Yikes. But it is a good chair... Came back home, ate, went out to borrow a toolbox from Li Zhen, came back to assemble this thingie, which was surprisingly easy, actually. It looks nice. Painfully moved stuffs from my original desk to the new desk, and cleaned up things, and now I have a very nice room. In between, there was laundry, and I'm simply exhausted...but it was a good day.

Random notes...

• It just seems that everyone I asked told me to choose puzzle over wedding, but I'm really torned. I understand that ultimately it's my decision, but I somehow feel that I want to go against the crowd... I guess I just have to wonder which one would be more painful to miss...
• By adding this new desk to the room, I'm eliminating any more possibility of adding anything else to my room. There are advantages and disadvantages to that, of course... Most notably, the heavybag is never coming back. Also, now I have a space to study and read, for both academic and spiritual purposes, and I'm happy about it.
• Yes, there are definitely advanatages in shopping with mom. Most notably, she buys things that I will never imagine myself buying.
• Where is Samuel?
• Finally completed the family trip photo upload. The compressed photos are still in the gallery, but the uncompressed undeleted photos can be downloaded in the shared section. A warning, though, that the total size of all the files is close to 2GB.

I'm grateful to God for...

• another safe trip to Ikea and back;
• this clean room and additional space for studying;
• Kai and Sophie being willing to come to Sunday service;
• showing me this still-rebellious heart that I have; and
• giving me enough energy to last through the day.