A string of small things were done today, surprisingly enough, so it wasn't totally wasted...heh. The morning prayer was tough, unable to focus at all. A call from mom was so long, but drove me to tears again when she mentioned my life history and emotional attachments... Studied the Bible, which I haven't really done in a long time...even though it was just one verse, it was good enough. Lunch. Sleep. Finally sent out this VISA statement screw up report thingie, which I really should have done a long time ago. Something else I should have done a long time ago: redeeming my GIC...took me more than half a year to finally make the call, but when I made the call, it was so easy...I really don't know why I was so very afraid to do these little things...yikes. Evening clean up of recycles in my room. Treasure Hunters finale was good. Aaron screwed up on telling me when to pick him up, but good thing he did make the last minute correction...

Random notes: I think I saw Billy yesterday at church, but I wasn't absolutely sure...; I really should make a resolve not to pick up the phone when I'm watching must-see television, especially during the climax of a season finale...; I make a habit of writing down notes during my Bible studies, and I thought of posting them and perhaps get some feedback...but then if I do that, maybe I'll distract myself when writing the notes down, in particular, not write anything personal in there...so, not now, I guess...; it does feel a bit nice to do something, even if they're tiny trivial things...; I don't know why I keep my "negativity persona"...even when things are good, I don't like it and think that things are bad anyway...part of it may stem from the fact that whenever someone asks "how are you?" I really hate the standard "good" "fine" answers, so I tend to answer the other way around...and of course, I don't like dishonest answers...

I'm grateful to God for...

• the time of devotion this morning, asking me to simply arise and follow Him...;
• getting these little banking and other things done;
• how my mom understands part of the things that I've been going through;
• the tiny little bit of joy that He gave me; and
• keeping me away from temptatious situations today.