Random notes: It's kind of sad that I didn't even realize that I was depressed, since being in a state of depression was kind of the normal state for me...oh well, need to turn this around...; for the scripture reading for today, I thought I would think about the familiar phrase "the joy of the Lord is my strength"...I was kind of surprised to find this to originate in Nehemiah...need to think more about this, though; I'm supposed to do research, but really, what was I thinking?; good to finally have a casual conversation with Samuel, which I enjoyed; there're all sorts of things wrong with my body right now, not sure what's going on here...; I fell asleep in my morning prayer...it was kind of sad, reminded me a lot about Peter...; there's now an additional conundrum in that my mom really wants to get a one-year lease on an apartment that Ginger lives in...but really, I don't want to deal with all the hassles that comes with this...; maybe it would be easier to read if I put random notes in point form...hmm...

On physical exercise...well, the one sport that I like to do, God doesn't want me to do it (even though I still really want to...). I don't like any other sports, so I can only resort to running around. But really, I hate running, so I kind of stopped for a couple of weeks now, and gained back some of the weight lost this year. Alright, I know that I need to exercise, and in fact I have so much aggressive energy inside to burn off...but somehow I just don't know what to do...

I'm grateful to God for...

• a slightly more cheerful outlook for myself;
• keeping me emotionally calm for most of the day;
• the mystery and the possible reality that is of "the joy of the Lord is my strength"...;
• laying more burdens on me to come back to serve him in the fellowships; and
• a number of interesting msn conversations today...