The plan for yesterday: 2 emails, 3 blog posts, 4 projects. Things done for yesterday: 1 email. Granted, it was a good email, took a long and difficult time to compose, and I felt a peculiar sense of relief after sending it. But still, I haven't even come close to achieving my plans...which is kind of sad. The evening proctoring and marking were fun, though... In proctoring, I got the weirdest request ever: a student asked if I have a pencil lead to spare...and it just happens that I put two of them in my pencil just the afternoon, so incredibly, I was actually able to help. The marking went from 10.5pm to 1.5am, by which time I was just totally exhausted. We had a ton of laughs at the marking, though... Unfortunately, we mostly laugh at the students' ineptitudes... The average turned out to be 64, far lower than most of our predictions, although surprisingly close to Omran's. And that's the day. By the way, is it sad that throughout the day, the children's song performed at the summer camp kept running in my head? "Choose today: will you listen and obey?"

The epiphany I got today is that when I "follow Jesus," I don't do it with a gladness of the heart. I do it because it's the right thing to do, but my heart just wasn't right. It's like when they sing "willingly we follow," this following phrase comes closer to the truth: "grudgingly I follow..."

I'm grateful to God for...

• the amazing coincidence with the pencil lead thing, one little thing that astounds me;
• the sermons on Hebrews by Pastor Tong, which are mindblowing;
• the relief I felt in sending an email to Samuel;
• revealing to me the sad condition of my heart; and
• completing the marking of the final exam last night, so that I get a chance to visit Wayne today.