It's just a strange day. Started with another morning of struggling to get myself to do things, but instead, ate and went to sleep for the most part (also downloaded VB2005 express for no good reason). Finally dragged myself to the office in the rainy afternoon, only to do nothing at the office. Came back for more sleep and eat and Treasure Hunting, then finally, at long last, did some research work.

I have to say, the day got to a point where I just felt incredibly frustrated and violent... There was this strange desire to throw almost everything against the wall and bang everything as hard as possible...sort of a flashback to how my cousin Solomon used to be... I think I was just very frustrated with everything...the inability to pray, the heavy resistance to reading the Bible, the never ending temptations, the lack of motivation to do any research and marking, the impending visit of my family and my continued annoyance with them, the lack of physical exercise, the millions of tiny little things that I need to do... I just want to escape from life... "Be still, and know that I am God..." -- Psalm 46:10

I'm grateful to God for...

• the Mideast ceasefire;
• softening the day with Tony's visit to my office;
• giving me enough strength to do some research;
• being such a mysterious God, so uncomprehensible, yet requiring a simple faith like a child; and
• the interesting timing between David's departure and my family's arrival...