8 hours, 4 cities, 269.5 kilometres. That was yesterday's trip to the Toronto area. First, a drive to Mississauga to find Wayne. The 401 got quite congested in Mississauga, so I took a detour... Once with Wayne, we had a good time with lunch at a seafood restaurant, and after chatting more at his place, I went off to get groceries at around 1.5pm. First to T&T, then to a dumpling place (where I miraculously actually remember where it is, despite only been there once early this year while it's closed), then off to home. Boy, the drive home was just torturous. Traffic was jammed almost from beginning to end. I've never seen jamming beyond Toronto like that. I initially refused to turn on the air con, but after an hour or so, I just couldn't take it and turned it on. Plus the sun shining down on me, I had a hard time trying to hide my forearm from the sun, and ended up getting sun burns... All in all, that drive home (plus a stop at the service station for a sundae...heh) took 2.5 hours...when normally it would take no more than 90 minutes...yikes. That was hard. And then immediately I'm whisked away (by myself) to the fellowship, and we sat for close to three hours, then refreshment for an hour, and I was just dead tired... Plus, somehow my body was releasing a lot of gas not through my mouth or nose..........so it was weird. Anyway, that was an exhausting day.

I am ashamed that I didn't come away from the summer camp with more...it seems like everyone else got a lot out of it, and they can share so much of it. And I...just can't. All I can think about is how everything went crazy immediately after the summer camp ended, and I didn't have time to process what's been happening in the camp. So...yeah. And even though serving is the theme of the camp and I have a lot of struggles with the problem of serving as well, I'm still as confused as ever, and I'm not even sure I have the heart to deal with this...

I'm grateful to God for...

• protecting me in this safe trip to Toronto, saving me from a couple of close calls;
• the fellowship with Wayne;
• testing my patience once again to a new limit;
• keeping me up through the fellowship, even though I was so tired; and
• challenging me to trust Him in believing His perfect timing.