Yesterday: Morning struggle to wake up. Afternoon struggle to understand the project paper, which was greatly helped by Irene. The pita lunch really screwed up my stomach, and the later Vietnamese dinner didn't help, either. I was in deep pain at the end of the day, and eventually had to throw up (hence the dinner was wasted). Boy, I haven't vomited in a long time now...at least I don't remember ever going through that since I came to Waterloo... The pain was excruciating, even though I knew that was just small compared to other kinds of physical pain. Sigh...looks like my tolerance for pain is so little...

Today: The deep sleep really helped relieve a bit of pain, but still I had some pain on the lower right side of the body when I move. Sent a couple of emails at 3am, which seems like a good time to send emails, apparently. I'm supposed to do project during the day, but the pain kept me away from it...although I have to wonder why it didn't keep me away from sleep and puzzles... Afternoon myf talked about temptations, and there's the sense that people keep talking about their own temptations without really saying what they're about...I really wanted to just come out and say, hey, mine's a sexual temptation, how about you? But yeah, didn't do that. Came home, just finished dinner (a day of malnutrition really isn't that good).

I'm grateful to God for...

• helping me understand the project paper better;
• making me realize my weakness in how little tolerance I have for pain, and perhaps finally understand a little what some other people are going through;
• greatly reduced the pain that I was experiencing overnight;
• giving me courage to share my doubts on serving with Laura, my observations on mccf with Jeff, and my experience with temptations with myf; and
• being so faithful, lifting me up when I fell down over and over again.