Nope, I totally don't understand myself, why I'm continuing to run toward temptations and run away from God. It's very frustrating. My head keeps running the song with the lyric, "Today I choose to follow You..." And I'm like...nope, I didn't choose that today. Sigh... In related news, I find youtube.com as a hot bed for the source of most of these temptations, and coincidentally, 3 people mentioned this site to me today, all using it for perfectly good entertainment. What is going on?

I sort of wanted some kind of release for my internal aggression, but didn't find anything. By evening, I was just too desperate to get out, so I called Chen Jie and Ed, and we played foosball and table tennis at my place. It was good relief. Two rounds of three games of foosball where Chen Jie and I teamed up...we lost both times...heh. But it was close.

I'm grateful to God for...

• this evening of relief from loneliness, and a chance to connect with Chen Jie and Ed;
• giving me enough courage to ask people out instead of being frustrated at home;
• once again, releasing sexual tension at sleep;
• not letting temptations go way out of control;
• helping me in knowing how to respond to the group that asked for feedback today.