It's quite discomforting to wake up in the morning and say to myself, "man, I'm not ready to face the day." I know that I need to connect with God, but I'm struggling to do that as well... There's a lot of unnecessary fear that arose because of this.

I guess when I wrote that first paragraph in the morning, what I didn't realize is that I would be spending the entire day exchanging emails with Francis. It's very emotionally draining, but I think it's all necessary.

I'm grateful to God for...

• being invited to a lunch with Li Zhen and Chen Jie...coincidentally, I was thinking all along that I should take them out for dinner today...;
• repeatedly calming me down and giving me a rational mind while I repeatedly get unnecessarily angry with what Francis wrote;
• reminding me once again to love Francis as a brother in Christ;
• providing me with more than enough sleep for the day; and
• surprising peaceful heart that I'm having right now, after a long and draining day.