The cfc sermon this morning is on judging...it was very humourous, but at the same time, man, it cuts so deep... I'm wondering if my judgmental attitude had contributed to the painful events in recent history. I'm wondering if I should contemplate on that, or simply move on and pray that the Lord would give me wisdom to "make the right judgment"...

After cfc, went to kwcac joint service. There's this send-off party for Pastor Henry after the service, but I was just too tired (both physically tired and tired of the very long first speech), so I skipped it and went home. Didn't talk to anyone, either. Slept for a long time once home...I don't know how I was able to sleep so much these days, and my body was too weak to get up even if I was awake...strange.

Two forces are pulling me apart. On one hand, the panic about being so far behind on academic work with a million other things bothering me at the same time. On the other hand, the calming voice of God asking me to just trust Him and let go of everything to Him. It's so hard, man...so so hard...