All these troubles I'm facing and struggling with could have been solved if I simply follow Jesus' command to deny myself, take up my cross daily, and follow Him. In other words, let myself die, so I can live in Jesus. So now the question becomes, how much of an impact does Jesus have in me that I would be willing to give up myself for Him? That's a hard question to answer honestly...

For the matroid class today, I am supposed to do the exercises. I only did one, the one that is similar to something from the digraphs course last year, and I didn't even do the question completely... I was still thinking while in class how to solve the last part...eventually came up with something reasonable, and went for it. I was shaky, as always, but it was ok, after Jim resolved a few things. So I was kind of relieved. And then he announced that we can get 4 more days for the project, which, well, sort of sent me on this further procrastination mode again...sigh... Afternoon spent wasting time. Evening spent with mccf, where we had a potluck, played warfish and the apples game. I won once, finally. But yeah, not sure what to make of this evening...kind of...wasted?

I'm grateful to God for...

• saving me once again from disaster in matroid class, even though I tried to get away with as little as possible;
• calling me to come back to Him;
• the chat with Wayne last night, which reminded me to have courage to stand up for the gospel of Christ;
• being able to connect with David Lee, even if it's over warfish; and
• reducing the level of temptations that I faced today.