Pretty much wasted the day to sleeping and puzzling and waiting. I did manage to watch The First Action Heroes musical from Willingdon kids on the web. Slightly funny, and learned lessons about trust, courage, forgiveness, obedience, and love. Needed the kids to remind me of Colossians 3...boy, that chapter looks so different now than before... Also the talk about fathers made me sad, because this feeling that I don't think I've ever had a loving father re-surfaced to my mind...if I ever become a father (and that is a big if), I need to do a lot better.

I am having some frightening thoughts...I'm slightly enjoying this sabbatical from serving a bit too much, so much so that I'm a bit reluctant in coming back to serve God. Then again, when I see myf having 5-hour coworker meeting and discussing trivial stuffs to no end, I'm not sure I want to go back there anyway. Perhaps I should serve in a different place? mccf, for example? Or perhaps, as a really scary thought, go back to chair myf and fix some things...but man, this is something I've always been avoiding, for its responsibility is far more than I could handle... Anyway, I guess I'll need to pray a lot more about this.

I am grateful to God for...

• pulling me away while I rebelliously create temptatious situations today;
• the beautiful sunsets these days;
• relieving my sexual pressures at sleep;
• David Lee, through whom I was taught a lesson about competitiveness;
• constantly testing the limits of my patience.