Apparently I take a lot of things personally, and it appears to be true even for playing games...I don't like winning games...

A day of frustration where I worked on these matroid exercises with the extreme pressure that I need to get something done. I didn't manage to finish any question until just now. It's really sad, the whole day of solving, and only one exercise to show for. I tried some of the other exercises, but couldn't solve them...one is particularly frustrating because I can solve everything up to the very last step, and then I'm stuck. Anyway, this means that I got no time to do research, so maybe I need to cancel the meeting tomorrow.

There are times when I would do something and start to think, I did that just for myself, didn't I? It's very obvious that I was doing it for myself and not for God. Jesus asks me to deny myself daily...how hard is that?