I spent about a month's time studying Psalm 19, and it finally concluded today. I have now memorized this psalm (and hopefully not forgotten already...). It's just such a beautiful psalm, so deep and full of amazing descriptions of God's wonder and His Word. Last verse: "Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be acceptable in Your sight, O Lord my strength and my Redeemer."
Today...cfc service with David...kwcac service alone...lunch at church...Scrabble...long afternoon nap...evening prayer meeting with 3 people. I learned more lesson this morning on patience and stuff. Before I left home, I called David to say that I'll pick him up in 10 minutes. I arrived in 10 minutes, and started to wait. I waited and waited and waited...for 10 minutes I waited, which is more than I would, quite frankly, since I always want to be on time. I was seriously considering leaving him behind. But then the Lord seems to tell me this: it's more important to pick up David than to be on time. But I was still struggling with it. I have originally set a time that I would be absolutely need to go, and David ran out just when the clock hit that time. The timing was amazingly perfect that it must have been a test from God. Turns out that David forgot that I don't have a cell and was waiting for me to call, until suddenly he had this revelation (which must have been God's prompting) and ran out...heh. So yeah, that was the mini-lesson from God for today. We ended up arriving just on time anyway, so that was wonderful. The sermon at cfc was wonderful, too, and challenging as well...stop, look, and listen.
Imagine this...I was once afraid to pray out loud among a group of people...I would refuse this task as much as possible...that had been the case all my life, up until these recent life-changing experiences. Now I would be more than willing to pray. It's another hidden transformation that God did in me, which is quite amazing. Sure I would still be afraid to pray in front of people, but for different reasons. It used to be that I simply didn't like this kind of thing, thinking that this would be more like a speech than praying to God, and I would be afraid of what people think about my prayers. But now, I'm afraid of being proud and selfish, and not humble to pray before the Lord. I'm learning to let go of trying to pre-think what to say to God. Instead, just realize that my soul is weak, my words are inadequete, and rely on the Holy Spirit to guide me in my prayers, direct them to God, focusing on Him only, give my heart to Him, and not care about what people think. It's still a lesson that I'm learning.
Today...cfc service with David...kwcac service alone...lunch at church...Scrabble...long afternoon nap...evening prayer meeting with 3 people. I learned more lesson this morning on patience and stuff. Before I left home, I called David to say that I'll pick him up in 10 minutes. I arrived in 10 minutes, and started to wait. I waited and waited and waited...for 10 minutes I waited, which is more than I would, quite frankly, since I always want to be on time. I was seriously considering leaving him behind. But then the Lord seems to tell me this: it's more important to pick up David than to be on time. But I was still struggling with it. I have originally set a time that I would be absolutely need to go, and David ran out just when the clock hit that time. The timing was amazingly perfect that it must have been a test from God. Turns out that David forgot that I don't have a cell and was waiting for me to call, until suddenly he had this revelation (which must have been God's prompting) and ran out...heh. So yeah, that was the mini-lesson from God for today. We ended up arriving just on time anyway, so that was wonderful. The sermon at cfc was wonderful, too, and challenging as well...stop, look, and listen.
Imagine this...I was once afraid to pray out loud among a group of people...I would refuse this task as much as possible...that had been the case all my life, up until these recent life-changing experiences. Now I would be more than willing to pray. It's another hidden transformation that God did in me, which is quite amazing. Sure I would still be afraid to pray in front of people, but for different reasons. It used to be that I simply didn't like this kind of thing, thinking that this would be more like a speech than praying to God, and I would be afraid of what people think about my prayers. But now, I'm afraid of being proud and selfish, and not humble to pray before the Lord. I'm learning to let go of trying to pre-think what to say to God. Instead, just realize that my soul is weak, my words are inadequete, and rely on the Holy Spirit to guide me in my prayers, direct them to God, focusing on Him only, give my heart to Him, and not care about what people think. It's still a lesson that I'm learning.
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