Yes, I've been emotionally highly unstable. I was still in a foul mood this morning, not knowing what's going on. After a short sleep, still the same. But after reading Abide in Christ, I felt a sense of calm amidst the continuing turmoil. So on one hand, I need to surrender my life to Christ, realize that Christ is in my heart and not somewhere out there in the distant. On the other hand, I can only patiently wait for God to slowly progress this relationship with Jesus, and not panic once again. It's still a hard lesson, and I pray that I'm slowly learning it.

Funny how God works... So I knew there is going to be a prayer meeting for mccf today. I briefly contemplated going but decided against it unless Samuel invites me. That was just a thought in passing, partially as a joke. Long and behold, a few hours later, Samuel did invite me to the prayer meeting. Well, there you go, so I went. I felt ashamed that I think I was unknowningly testing God, and astonished at the work of this awesome God.

Supervisor meeting tomorrow, and I still haven't made up the slides...yikes.