Went to a seminar this morning, which is a surprise because I haven't attended one in a long long time. During the seminar, however, I'm starting to realize, this isn't what I want to do for the rest of my life, is it? Talking about things that very few people can understand, mindlessly attending these talks and conferences, asking questions whose answers are useless at best, let alone changing lives? I'm starting to think that I really don't want to walk down this road of academia, at least not after my PhD graduation...but what else can I do? Pretty much nothing, really...

I had lunch with Francis at the pita place today (first time this term that Francis actually came to me for lunch, I think). During lunch, Francis asked about my conditions, and I talked about what I experienced yesterday. Well, I don't really think he cares that much, really, as he was reading a Dell flyer and eating while listening to me. Eventually he basically laughs and trivializes my pain, and that was that. Note to self: never talk to Francis about serious stuffs again. Until he matures a bit, that is.

There's supposed to be a supervisor meeting tomorrow, and there's supposed to be a second stage comprehensive exam in three weeks. But I'm just doing so little right now that I don't know if I'm ever going to be ready for either of them.