So there was this fellowship thingie. I think Samuel's still purposely avoiding me for some odd reason. But anyway, we had a long long LONG sharing time, and then a long Bible study. Among them, I managed to share my loneliness in the sharing time, and my spiritual doubt in the Bible study. So I guess that's a step forward. Too bad we didn't have any prayers about them, so I just hope that some brave souls would pray for me. 6 of us (then 7) went to Swiss Chalet for dinner, and it was a good dinner. I liked talking to Li Zhen actually...but anyway, I finally got out of my place to eat...finally.

Apparently by missing out on the pre-study yesterday, I managed to miss a dinner with the group, plus the supposedly awesome Lifesong in the evening. Sigh...and there I was, sitting alone in my room, going crazy.

Seriously, for the past 2.5 days, it's been a nightmare for me to live. Mostly living alone, I start to think and think and think, and get myself very depressed, and then go to sleep. I couldn't even contact anyone for fear of bothering people. (There goes my "fear" thing again...) On the other hand, I don't want to be a social animal either, like I wouldn't want to be hanging out with people all the time. But this going all alone thingie is a bit extreme, too...