It took a while, but finally I got my plane ticket for Taiwan booked. So I'm leaving April 14, returning May 7. It was funny how I got a agent that is an "intern" and I was her first customer... Anyway, it got sorted out somehow, I don't know how.

What else happened today? Well, I went out for lunch with Li Zhen and Penny by accident...attended the Tutte seminar, which I haven't done in a long time...got fooled by Li Zhen into this Mozart concert (hehehe), and considering that I fooled Li Zhen into the mccf praise and worship night last Friday, this is fair game...went out for dinner with Li Zhen, Penny and Chen Jie, also by accident. Boy, two restaurant meals for one day, and a lack of exercise, and a ton of sleep...this isn't going to be good for my weight, eh? Anyway, it was a good day...for most of the day.

I keep thinking about song lyrics like "Jesus is my best friend" or "Jesus, be the centre" or "Be the fire in my heart, be the wind in these sails, be the reason that I live, Jesus, Jesus." And it's very jarring. I mean, these are some of these songwriters' wonderful experience with Jesus, but I just couldn't sing these with honesty in my heart. I feel I'm so far off from the experiences that they have, and I feel heartbroken. I really don't know what it's like to have this close personal relationship with Jesus. I pray and pray, but I still don't get it. Maybe the Lord is calling me "O foolish man"...I don't know. I just don't know.