For reasons totally unbeknownst to me, I started thinking about the song "I will give You all my worship" that I used to love so much back in the days. Thinking through the song today, however, I find it very disheartening. It feels a lot like the Israelites after receiving the law saying that they will do whatever the law says, and then break it immediately. I, for one, cannot sing this song honestly, and that's just too bad...
Temporarily abandoning the Bible reading plan, I read Psalm 51 this morning. So of course the song "Create in my a clean heart" came to mind throughout the day. Two verses that stand out to me: "Restore to me the joy of Your salvation" and "The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit, a broken and a contrite heart--these, O God, You will not despise." Regarding sin, I realize that I can do all I can to remove all elements leading to sin and possibly avoid falling into temptation again; however, if my heart doesn't change, I would still desire these sinful things, and it's still bad. I can only pray that the Lord can change my heart, and also pray that I would be willing to be changed.
For the record, I treat this weblog as a personal journal for my own record keeping, since writing a journal by hand is simply too hard. My assumption when writing (except for this paragraph) is that nobody else is reading it. I write for myself only, and I'm not trying to send out any messages to anyone. What I write may be brutally honest, but you have the freedom to choose not to read it. My belief is that only the people who are really bored would read this, and I don't mind providing this material for the bored to read. When I see or talk to you in person, my assumption is that you did not read this, unless you have told me otherwise, which is fine. I guess that's why sometimes you would hear me tell you the same stories that you've read already. Anyway, my point is, read if you wish, but whether you read it or not, that does not matter to me. Just don't be disturbed by what I write...
Temporarily abandoning the Bible reading plan, I read Psalm 51 this morning. So of course the song "Create in my a clean heart" came to mind throughout the day. Two verses that stand out to me: "Restore to me the joy of Your salvation" and "The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit, a broken and a contrite heart--these, O God, You will not despise." Regarding sin, I realize that I can do all I can to remove all elements leading to sin and possibly avoid falling into temptation again; however, if my heart doesn't change, I would still desire these sinful things, and it's still bad. I can only pray that the Lord can change my heart, and also pray that I would be willing to be changed.
For the record, I treat this weblog as a personal journal for my own record keeping, since writing a journal by hand is simply too hard. My assumption when writing (except for this paragraph) is that nobody else is reading it. I write for myself only, and I'm not trying to send out any messages to anyone. What I write may be brutally honest, but you have the freedom to choose not to read it. My belief is that only the people who are really bored would read this, and I don't mind providing this material for the bored to read. When I see or talk to you in person, my assumption is that you did not read this, unless you have told me otherwise, which is fine. I guess that's why sometimes you would hear me tell you the same stories that you've read already. Anyway, my point is, read if you wish, but whether you read it or not, that does not matter to me. Just don't be disturbed by what I write...
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