Yesterday: Finished marking and sent off the exams. Onto William's and then Fairview Mall, where mom bought a stuffed animal (it was a rabbit) for my birthday...yikes. Went off to Stratford afterwards, where it was wintery, and pretty, and cold. There was a full dinner with the Yens and the Chens, and then a trip to Conestoga to bother Roger, and then we were home. I think the trip was around 120 kilometres in total. Nothing too interesting happened, I guess.

Today: Bored at home while mom worked on more cleaning, then fellowship that included a meal, then bored at home while mom talked to me for about two hours. It's a shame that I still could not muster enough courage to talk about the real problems I'm facing.

Yes, I like to have friends, I like to invite them to my place for food and chat, I like to go out with them for some activities. My problem: I'm too shy, and I'm really really afraid that I'm bothering them too much. After all, this is a hardcore university town...everyone seems to be busy, so I don't think I fit in to their schedules. Besides, I think most people don't like me anyway...but what does that matter? I'm not supposed to care much of what people think of me, right? Sigh...I'm as confused about friendships as ever.