Early this morning, I was woken up by a phone call from Aaron. He needed help because his car was somehow stuck in the snow. Oh, by the way, that was around 2:30am. My initial instinct was to complain about how he got into this situation in the first place, but realized quickly what he needed then was some help, not finger-pointing. But still, I was too tired and sleepy to send his girlfriend home, so I didn't do it. What happened after that, I have no idea. Of course I couldn't fall asleep afterwards for a while, which caused a pretty loopy morning service for me. It is interesting how this sort of illustrates the human nature (at least my human nature): quick to blame, slow to help.
I had stomach problems throughout the day, with the lack of appetite and stuff. I think it's most likely because I've drawn back to the thinking-too-much days already. After the morning service, a group of myfers decided to go out to eat, but I refused because of my stomach thingie and the lack of sleep. In reality, I wanted to go and try to socialize with them, but as the scripture said (which I'm applying inappropriately), "the spirit is willing but the flesh is weak." I guess either way, it would be a waste of time regardless and I would feel empty anyway. So yeah. I sent mom to Yen's place while I went home to eat a little bit, sleep, and do a bit of exercise. I went to Yen's place afterwards, and had yet another small bite of things. We watched Wallace & Gromit, yay! It is still very very funny, and the airbag joke is just hilarious...I don't remember that from watching it in the movie theatre... Anyway, they liked it (well, Ginger fell asleep, but anyway). It was to New City Supermarket to get some groceries before coming home to eat dinner and here I am. I still stare into space and do my mad thinking a lot, which still disturbs me. Often I would have several streams of thought coming together all the time, so it is kind of difficult to actually write them down or share it with others. So the day starts and ends with this sad note.
I truly don't know how to communicate with people.
I had stomach problems throughout the day, with the lack of appetite and stuff. I think it's most likely because I've drawn back to the thinking-too-much days already. After the morning service, a group of myfers decided to go out to eat, but I refused because of my stomach thingie and the lack of sleep. In reality, I wanted to go and try to socialize with them, but as the scripture said (which I'm applying inappropriately), "the spirit is willing but the flesh is weak." I guess either way, it would be a waste of time regardless and I would feel empty anyway. So yeah. I sent mom to Yen's place while I went home to eat a little bit, sleep, and do a bit of exercise. I went to Yen's place afterwards, and had yet another small bite of things. We watched Wallace & Gromit, yay! It is still very very funny, and the airbag joke is just hilarious...I don't remember that from watching it in the movie theatre... Anyway, they liked it (well, Ginger fell asleep, but anyway). It was to New City Supermarket to get some groceries before coming home to eat dinner and here I am. I still stare into space and do my mad thinking a lot, which still disturbs me. Often I would have several streams of thought coming together all the time, so it is kind of difficult to actually write them down or share it with others. So the day starts and ends with this sad note.
I truly don't know how to communicate with people.
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