I just feel like I don't have the ability to say the right thing, let alone at the right time. Especially with Alan, I mean, there are things that I felt I shouldn't have said after I said them. We're going to be living together for at least a year, hope he doesn't find me to be a weirdo or something.

Looking at the remaining work ahead, I'm just very very afraid. Not to mention being sick and all.

So dad bought the lens. I requested a choice of two possible lenses, and ask him to ask around and decide. The lens he bought costs about $280, which is a pretty good deal considering that I would have bought it here for $400 plus tax. The lens he didn't buy, he said, would cost around $4,400....wow, I didn't know it would be that expensive. Meanwhile, he bought an EOS 300D (although I really couldn't find it on Canon's website) for $1,200. He said he wants one, but would give it to me if I want it. Now I have to wonder if I need two cameras...