I don't have the motivation for making an entry these days. Don't really know why. Here are a few things up in my mind recently:
During this week's BBS, I taught about temptation and sin. The morning after, I was tempted, and I failed. Sigh... I can never put anything I teach to practice, apparently. That makes me really close to be a Pharisee...
Once again, hunger + sleep deprivation = disability of the mind.
Monday night = write-a-thesis night. Tuesday morning = surface evaluation of Monday night's work from the supervisor. Wednesday afternoon = deeper evalution, which, in this case, turns out to be "this is getting much better"! Ok, so that's a relief. I guess one element that made this work is not getting a call after midnight, if you know what I mean...
Wednesday = marking day. The students are torturing me, once again. Good thing I got one hard question and one easy question to mark. Total 62 papers, hard question took 7 hours to mark, easy question took 1.25 hours. Every student wrote the hard question, and some skipped the easy question...what kind of students do they have in UW anyway???
I purposely lent my laptop to MuTao yesterday. This served two purposes: It keeps me from a ton of distraction, and it keeps MuTao busy with movie viewing so that he doesn't complain of being bored. I think one of it worked...
Thursday morning = rushing for nothing. I was at school early in the morning to enter the grades and send off the assignments. Then an emergency came up at around 10. And I have 1 hour to make everything work and arrive back to the office for my office hour.
The plan: Pick up MuTao at 10:30, drop him off at 10:35, go to Optometry and get May at 10:40, drop her off at 10:45, come back to park the car at 10:50, and this leaves 10 minutes for me to walk to office. Plenty of time, I'd say.
The reality: Pick up MuTao at 10:25, he showed up at 10:33, drop him off at 10:38, arrived at Optometry at 10:42, didn't see May, so I ran to the building and back, just to see her approaching my car at 10:45, dropped May off at 10:51, parked my car at 10:56, and this left 4 minutes for me to run to the office. Result: I couldn't run for long, not surprisingly. I arrived at my office at around 11:04, only to see nobody came to my office hour...sigh... And I even did the fearless driving and the fearless running for that! Sigh...now all I am left with is an exhausted body and a pair of sore legs...
One of my wishes is that MuTao would grow and improve spiritually. Then I realize, I couldn't even do that for myself, how dare I hope that it would happen to another person?
Went to Alex's talk today. It was excellent! Definitely one of the more memorable talks for me. He gets bonus points for picking on Mark instead of me...hehe. And the audience questions? Suspicious. Seems so much like a perfect set up...which makes it even more funny.
Here's a Lemmings update. Puzzles solved each day starting at the 13th: 8, 1, 1, 2, 0, 1, 4*, 2. The * indicates that I cheated on one level by looking up walkthroughs on the internet...shame on me! And it wasn't that hard of a level anyway...just very frustrating. Now, lemmings are extremely extremely difficult. Not sure how far I would go... Oh, and that * indicates that on that day, I found out that one level will never load...it just gives a fatal error. Looks like those darn lemmings died before I even get a chance to meet them...
MuTao rented a car today (supposedly) and went to Toronto. Still don't know what he's doing there. Something he doesn't want to tell me, apparently... Now he got his money, he got his car, not sure if that's a good thing... I got a personal mission to make sure he comes to the fellowship this Saturday, but seriously, what are the chances of that happening? He long planned to not come to that one just because he knew we wanted to celebrate his birthday...now that he has a car, the chances just dropped significantly.
I am alone, and lonely, and my attitudes went sour recently. Not sure if it's because of the pressure of thesis, or the fear of finding a supervisor for PhD, or the fact that so much of the time I spent was wasted aimlessly, or the frustration about everything, or something. Not feeling well for sure.
Ok, this post is getting too long. I'll stop now.
During this week's BBS, I taught about temptation and sin. The morning after, I was tempted, and I failed. Sigh... I can never put anything I teach to practice, apparently. That makes me really close to be a Pharisee...
Once again, hunger + sleep deprivation = disability of the mind.
Monday night = write-a-thesis night. Tuesday morning = surface evaluation of Monday night's work from the supervisor. Wednesday afternoon = deeper evalution, which, in this case, turns out to be "this is getting much better"! Ok, so that's a relief. I guess one element that made this work is not getting a call after midnight, if you know what I mean...
Wednesday = marking day. The students are torturing me, once again. Good thing I got one hard question and one easy question to mark. Total 62 papers, hard question took 7 hours to mark, easy question took 1.25 hours. Every student wrote the hard question, and some skipped the easy question...what kind of students do they have in UW anyway???
I purposely lent my laptop to MuTao yesterday. This served two purposes: It keeps me from a ton of distraction, and it keeps MuTao busy with movie viewing so that he doesn't complain of being bored. I think one of it worked...
Thursday morning = rushing for nothing. I was at school early in the morning to enter the grades and send off the assignments. Then an emergency came up at around 10. And I have 1 hour to make everything work and arrive back to the office for my office hour.
The plan: Pick up MuTao at 10:30, drop him off at 10:35, go to Optometry and get May at 10:40, drop her off at 10:45, come back to park the car at 10:50, and this leaves 10 minutes for me to walk to office. Plenty of time, I'd say.
The reality: Pick up MuTao at 10:25, he showed up at 10:33, drop him off at 10:38, arrived at Optometry at 10:42, didn't see May, so I ran to the building and back, just to see her approaching my car at 10:45, dropped May off at 10:51, parked my car at 10:56, and this left 4 minutes for me to run to the office. Result: I couldn't run for long, not surprisingly. I arrived at my office at around 11:04, only to see nobody came to my office hour...sigh... And I even did the fearless driving and the fearless running for that! Sigh...now all I am left with is an exhausted body and a pair of sore legs...
One of my wishes is that MuTao would grow and improve spiritually. Then I realize, I couldn't even do that for myself, how dare I hope that it would happen to another person?
Went to Alex's talk today. It was excellent! Definitely one of the more memorable talks for me. He gets bonus points for picking on Mark instead of me...hehe. And the audience questions? Suspicious. Seems so much like a perfect set up...which makes it even more funny.
Here's a Lemmings update. Puzzles solved each day starting at the 13th: 8, 1, 1, 2, 0, 1, 4*, 2. The * indicates that I cheated on one level by looking up walkthroughs on the internet...shame on me! And it wasn't that hard of a level anyway...just very frustrating. Now, lemmings are extremely extremely difficult. Not sure how far I would go... Oh, and that * indicates that on that day, I found out that one level will never load...it just gives a fatal error. Looks like those darn lemmings died before I even get a chance to meet them...
MuTao rented a car today (supposedly) and went to Toronto. Still don't know what he's doing there. Something he doesn't want to tell me, apparently... Now he got his money, he got his car, not sure if that's a good thing... I got a personal mission to make sure he comes to the fellowship this Saturday, but seriously, what are the chances of that happening? He long planned to not come to that one just because he knew we wanted to celebrate his birthday...now that he has a car, the chances just dropped significantly.
I am alone, and lonely, and my attitudes went sour recently. Not sure if it's because of the pressure of thesis, or the fear of finding a supervisor for PhD, or the fact that so much of the time I spent was wasted aimlessly, or the frustration about everything, or something. Not feeling well for sure.
Ok, this post is getting too long. I'll stop now.
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