I think it was last Tuesday when I had a total mental meltdown. The stress of things happening now and things in the unknown future, coupled with my constant struggle with life issues brought me down. The last push was the brothers prayer meeting where only Brian and I showed up, and I was thinking, just when I needed prayer most, people don’t come. What? Anyway, it was a horrible night, talked with Forest but that relieve everything. Tried to do puzzles, and that didn’t help. So I tried to fall asleep and did.

Really, can I just skip Ed and Ingrid’s wedding?

Visited Gary on Sunday. Things that happened: boxing, boardgames, chatting, food, groceries, driving, sleeping… And the last minute decision to stay another night because of the freezing rain warning in Waterloo. All in all, pretty good trip, I think. And congratulations, Rebecca!

So I’ve been going crazy recently. So many mix of emotions. I don’t think I can handle them all…sigh…

I should record that there was poker with the brothers last night…that’s while the girls were doing Ingrid’s bridal shower… I “tied” with Forest in the first game, and won the second game. Surprising. Probably because I got a lot of good cards.

The weather’s been bizarre. First the deep freeze at the end of last year, followed by a ton of snow. And there was the big melt down in 15-degree temperature early this year, and now we’re back down to -15 degrees with windchill as low as -24. Yikes. On top of that, there was no hot water nor heat in the apartment for close to two days…

Feeling very sick on the inside right now. So many things bothering me.

Playing boardgames with Forest and Li Zhen is so much more fun than playing with Harry.

Repressed aggression.

Wow…haven’t posted here in a long time now… So many things have happened, so little time to write them down…so I guess I won’t write them down now…just a couple of short comments…

Lots of driving and working during the holidays. I think I drove about 1000km within a week (800 of those within two days). There’s some more writing done on the thesis, but I still feel it’s far far from being finished and ready for graduation…

I’ve been thinking a lot about my general lack of physical skills…no strength, no endurance, no agility, nothing. It actually does bother me a lot…