I led my first Bible study in a year. I didn’t like it. And also exhausted from it. But the drawings that they made were nice…

It’s close to the end of October already, and I have this “I’m totally screwed” feeling with regards to the thesis. Meanwhile, I’m spending a ton of time with Forest and Gary, which I enjoy, but at the same time, worrying if I’m attaching too much again…doh.

Now that the Daylight Saving Time is so much longer than Standard Time, shouldn’t we rename it a little? The Daylight Saving should become the Standard Time, and the Standard Time should become the Daylight Wasting Time.

Another week went by, and I achieved almost nothing in terms of the thesis. There’s this one part of the thesis that I need to rewrite, and I just don’t know how to do it. I’m the kind of person who gives up very easily, so this certainly put a hold to my progress… Yikes. Well, at least I still haven’t given up on life…yet…

There’s the added pressure this week of doing this Bible study on Saturday. I haven’t done one in more than a year now, and I really don’t know what to do about it. It’s even worse considering that I’m still in a state of faith confusion… It’s just bad.

There’s even more pressure in thinking about whether to fly to Taiwan or not. I just hate that.

I don’t know how I keep wasting time. I tried to work…really, I tried…but I wasn’t trying hard. One look at the thing I need to do and I put my hands up in surrender, and then walk away. Lather, rinse, repeat. I keep telling myself that I will do better the next day, and that didn’t happen. Meanwhile, I’m doing a ton of meaningless puzzles that I don’t enjoy much anymore as an escape.

I injured probably a tendon, the place that connects the upper arm and the lower arm. So now I can’t extend my arm so that it’s straight…doh.

Still very very messed up.

It just feels that the whole world’s against me or something. I can’t even get something as silly as season 3 of Arrested Development… It’s got to a point where if anything that’s slightly disappointing happens, I can only shrug it off and say, that’s how the world works… Can’t do anything about it.

For the thesis, I finally finished a 25-page write up and sent it off to the supervisor last Friday. Now I have to do painful revisions on it. And of course this drives me back to my old do-nothing days… I hate this thesis thing.

Drew Carey took over The Price is Right yesterday. My feeling is that he wasn’t a regular viewer prior to this, so he tends to miss a few helpful lines here and there. Also, he’s not good with math and logic, apparently. When the contestant has changed the last three digits of the price of a car in the One Away game, you know the contestant has won if the first two digits are right…no need to go all the way to the end there… He also took a while to add up 55 cents and 15 cents… But the “oh mighty sound effect person” thing is funny… Anyway, I guess I won’t be watching this much, since it certainly helped a lot in making me do nothing…

So much to write about, yet I just don’t feel like writing…

Had the (second) most frustrating drive in memory. Being stuck because of a huge number of runners blocking off the street…not once, but twice! On a single Sunday morning. This is where I simply ran out of patience, and got tired of driving altogether. As an aside, I couldn’t tell if, while I’m being frustrated and angry, it’s better for my passengers to be joking or serious… I guess either way is bad. In any case, it’s a good thing that I didn’t didn’t drive to Costco this afternoon…

Another thing I’m tired of: life.

The second day of Stream of Praise trip to Toronto was slightly better, in the traffic sense. Normal 1.5-hour drive each way. Even got some dinner and shopping in, even though T&T was absolutely crowded at 9:30pm… Second day time was 8.5 hours, and the two-day distance total was 530.0 kilometres. Yikes. I won’t be doing much driving anytime soon…

I did something totally despicable yesterday…sigh…

Imagine this: If something in June happened slightly differently, I could be in Brazil right now… Absolutely regretting not doing well back in June, since I see the puzzle instructions for the Rio WPC, and find that I would have enjoyed these way more than the Bulgarian WPC…doh.

9 hours and 259.6 kilometres, half of which was pure pain. That’s how I would describe the trip to Toronto last night. Yikes…with the Thanksgiving traffic on a Friday afternoon, it’s no wonder it took about 3 hours to get from Waterloo to Toronto! As for the concert, we ended up sitting in the front row. I felt quite uncomfortable (as expected), this time even more intense since it’s just so loud and “bomp”y. And I was very hungry, too, so my legs were shaking. All in all, a strange experience, and I’m going there again today! Wow…I must be crazy.

Boardgame night where Harry actually quits! Heh…well, he simply doesn’t understand how a game should work, I guess. When you’re in the lead and almost winning, of course others will try to prevent you from winning! And since it’s slightly easier to do that in Power Grid, he should have changed his “charging ahead” strategy. Anyway, once Harry left, it actually became quite an interesting game…

The warm weather is certainly very bizarre. It was still 30 degrees yesterday. Hmm…I guess that’s why the leaves haven’t change colours that much…

The flat tire from Sunday turns out to be an expensive experience. Went to a car shop the next day, and they discovered that the hole on the flat was too large to repair, and it had damaged the centre already. Or so they said. Anyway, a new tire replaced the spare, and all in all, another $166 went down the drain. Goody…

I have been working on the thesis at a slightly faster pace…that is to say, still pretty slow. At least I’m getting nontrivial amounts of things written down each day this week, so that should count for something, right?

I don’t know why I’m going to Toronto two days in a row…